: poetry :

Alone

Alone I find myself
alone each night
to ponder and wonder
of what life would be like
with you, by my side
to share time together
worship as one with you
to fill my longing heart
and share my life with you

As I sit here alone
I think of all the times
in my life when we've met
but in my head my life's a dream
a movie played out
a romantic comedy of course
with a wonderful setting
and beautiful ending
but it never seems to work

It's no wonder I know
when I look at myself
through your eyes back at me
what I see is a poor reflection
a shy vague copy of what I am inside
and I rarely ever let out
incase you hear my thoughts
and I scare push you away

For if only I was that way
that charming, well versed man
that I have floating inside of me
the romantic, acceptable date
rather then this lonely boy
tong tied and rather weak
that's a bit of a risk to be
seen out with on the street
not a popular choice for sure

If only I could express
to you what I have on my chest
the complements and songs to sing
the places I'd take you with me to
but no, why would you go
for me when you have such choice
of every man in this place
all more than I can be
than me, plain little old me

Nick Bailey 2003